Facing Denial

You summon denial by saying “Denial” out loud

First I start from first position. You center, ground and bubble yourself. You have the responsibility, or you don't. In either case, good luck. Have your Sword or Stick of Clarity in your preferred hand. Clear with your purpose of meeting this black goo plastered all over reality. What are you denying?

You summon denial by saying “Denial” out loud. Don't do this in an upheld space, find a place that holds you and follow these steps. It might not be as bad as you think, and it might be the worst thing that you've seen in your life, the most morbid, the must repulsive, etc. That's not what we're doing here, what we're doing here is entering into a reality where your denial lives by summoning it from your center, grounding, and bubbled space.

Here’s what came up for me when I face denial:

I see a plaster all over people's faces, including my own, something that doesn't let me be with them, I can't see them, my connection with them is not clear, is not trusting, I put them there so that I protect myself from their reactions to me, this way I (my box) don't have to change. “You know, renovate only when necessary”.

Denial is beside me, sometimes behind me, saying he's got my back. At any time he would shoot on my command, this is what he offers. I see the world passing by, I see some faces. I see how I've denied them, it's so many is embarrassing and overwhelming. I see how others have been denied. I see how I’ve been denied and how I deny myself. Denied dignity, power, value, acceptance, kindness, compassion, the truth, love, embracing, support. Facing denial and being denied is not pretty.

Facing denial enough times (consciously about 2 years for me, being generous over 20 years), grants you the superpower of saying “NO”. What else is “NO” here for? Is denial a valuable natural force of the world? Did I get trained to see denial as evil? What is really evil about it? Is denial a proof that we’re all magical powerful beings?

I went first, now I invite you to go next. Would you share what happens for you when you face denial?